Sometimes I wonder if we're so numb as a society that when we do have those precious few moments of clarity and sobriety it's so uncomfortably jarring that the resulting shock sends us back into numbness.

Boy, I feel funny tonight. Someday I hope that I will actually have some idea of what I wish to do with my life. Of course, my ultimate goal is to glorify God. Of course, the how is by worshiping Him by abiding in Him. Of course I abide in Him through daily supplication and application of His Word (and by His grace above all). Of course this is the greatest joy in my life. But I still suffer from anxiety, anxiety I think for what I will actually do after I graduate. Another picture of how I still am weak and need His strength to carry on.